Singer Nicole Scherzinger arrives for the BRIT Awards, celebrating British pop music, in London
Singer Nicole Scherzinger arrives for the BRIT Awards, celebrating British pop music, at the O2 Arena in London February 19, 2014. Reuters/Luke MacGregor

Nicole Scherzinger, ex-Pussycat doll and X-factor UK judge, has suffered from bulimia, an eating disorder, for eight years.

In a recent interview with Cosmopolitan UK, she said she reached out only for help after her eating order reached its climax that became very scary.

She added she started losing her voice, couldn't sing at shows and her manager found her passed out on the floor one time in France.

"I thought, I'm going to lose everything I love if I don't love myself," she noted.

She's apparently letting the world know about her struggle with bulimia and she is letting those suffering from it that they can come out of bulimia as well. She seems to be living a happier and healthier life now.

Nicole continued that it was such a horrible, paralyzing disease, and it was a dark time for her. She attributed her empathy to the people because of what she went through.

She explained, "It robs you of living your life. But you can recover, and you can get rid of it forever. I did it, and that's why it's so important for me to share my story. I felt so alone...but I made myself so alone. You hide it from the world, you isolate yourself. But you can beat it-do not give up because you're so special and you're meant for such great things."

Nicole noted despite being on the top of her career, she was miserable on the inside wasting her life during the time she hid her disease.

She was the lead singer and main dancer of the Pussycat Dolls and her groupmate, Carmit Bacher, suggested it was Nicole's disorder that led to tensions in the group, disintegrating the group.

Nicole was the lead singer and chief dancer of the troupe, although rumors of jealousy toward Nicole and tensions between the girls have been rife.

"I never spoke about it, I never want to play a victim and I never wanted my family to hear about things from me because I think it would break their heart. guess it was like my addiction. I never did drugs, but kinda doing things to myself was my addiction," she said.